This Day Just Happens To Fall This Year On Maundy Thursday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

                                    After 47 years, it remains the saddest, most life changing day of my life thus far.

                                  My mother had been hospitalized for 6 weeks with inoperable lung cancer. We knew what the result would be.  But even if anyone thinks they are prepared, are they really?

                                    My father and I said good night on April 1, expecting to see her the next day.  Around 7:30AM, the phone rang.  It was the doctor, telling us that mother had passed.  I recall waking up in bed, and that the radio downstairs was playing a song I hated, and came to hate even more--"Honey," by Bobby Goldsboro!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

                                      And just a week after we put down our beloved, but ailing, 14-year-old French poodle, Baby Mouse!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

                                        What happens now?  What does the future hold for me.  I felt like Scarlett looking out on her life after seeing how the war had ravaged Tara!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

                                           I could never imagine then I would be where I am now.  The next three-and-a-half years were difficult ones for me.  

                                            Still, I never forget this day and what it did for me.  And how, like small starting engines, it ignited my life.

                                              But the loss is still felt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!